Wednesday, January 2, 2013

I'm at peace now (;

Ya Rabb..
I feel so much peace now.

Alhamdulillah :)

*Keep duty to Allah*

*Allah will take care of you*

*Allah will not leave you*

*The moment you realize it takes you AWAY from Allah, that's when you CUT the rope*

I mean it, CUT the rope.

*A believer ALWAYS stays away from sins. Once fell into one, repent :) *

*HE breaks to build the NEW you. Do not look back. Persistent. Stay true to HIM*


With so much love and peace,
Umm Teem
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Sunday, December 30, 2012

Twins of Faith 2012

Assalamu'alaykum..

Hmm.. I really don't know how to begin...

But, SUBHANALLAH..
The talks yesterday were AMAZING.
MashaAllah. Tabarakallah..

We learned many new things, as well as 'reminded' of learnED lessons.. 
SubhanAllah.. To compare to HIS VASTNESS of knowledge, of course, the knowledge we learned was INsignificant-nothing to the eyes of Allah, The One whose knowledge occupies more than 7 seas.. But to us human beings with limited knowledge and capacity, it was A LOT to digest and implement. A LOT enough to hold us accountable in the day of judgement, in front of Allah.. (Scary~)

Seriously,

What's better than talking, learning about Allah?
HIS attributes: MERCY, love, forgiveness.. 
HIS promises: Rewards in Jannah, severe punishments in hellfire, the day of judgement, life in dunya and grave..

Allahuakbar..

Amazing how HE is being PATIENT with us even though we forget HIM sometimes, even sinning, disobeying HIM (YA Rabb, i'm ashamed of myself thinking of this. Pls conceal them in this dunya and herafter).. A man could get tired of us when we keep doing something he dislikes. Yes, understood. I mean, who would want to be there when we terribly frustrate and disappoint others? Even if it was by accident, who would be patient enough for the second-third-fourth-infinity-times? (Wa 'iyadzhubillah, may Allah beautify our akhlaq and make us patient and reward us). I can understand that. And we-ourselves get devastated too when we keep falling into committing the same mistakes, the same sins tho' we've tried so hard.. Then we get tired sometimes to keep moving, going. And there were times, we quit, gave up, as we see people around us had also given up on us.. Yes, it's painful. No one's around to hold you, nor to help you to put the broken parts and pieces of you all together-again.

But guess what? Allah, al Ghafuur and ar Rahim never gets tired of us. Nor does HE abandones us. HE  will never leave us as long as we keep trying, no matter how hard it is to keep going. HE forgives and forgets.. 

Parable:
It puts me to tears to see a mother, with a smile, encouraging her small child to keep standing on her feet to learn to walk. And every time this child fell, she held her hands to stand again, and let her go-NOT TO abandon her, but to let her learns on her own while she assists and waits patiently.. The small child must have given up few times, but because this small innocent child knows her mother is THERE for her to support and help, she pushes herself further to keep trying ! 

Now, how about Allah? The One who spreads only 1% of HIS mercy on this earth, the same kind of mercy that HE showed through this mother, is now keeping with HIM another 99% ?!

Ya Rabb.. Let us not fall into despair.. Pls have mercy upon us all...

Allah will be with you.. He keeps forgiving our sins- HE WAITS US at the door of taubah 24/7.
As long as you don't give up upon yourself and keep having faith (iman)..

All this clears your mind, your thoughts..
Which we hope to lead us to act righteously..
Aiming for HIS mercy and to be able to meet, talk, see HIM..

Face the brutal facts

Talking about who Allah IS.. SubhanAllah.. It breaks me!
Ya Allah, i feel so dumb. Astaghfirullah..
Why do we keep forgetting You?
What puts us away from Your remembrance?
What hinders us from worshiping you well?
What stops us from getting up in the middle of the night and cries to you, begs you for Jannatul firdausil A'la?
Why are we soooo distracted?

*Boy oh boy. Am angry with myself*

WAKE UP.. Face the brutal facts.
YOU ARE SLEEPING.
Look at yourself.
Look at your progression in terms of your deen.
Look at how you live your life.
Look at how you spend the blessings Allah gives you.
What are you doing??
(Yes you! Who writes this!)

I had a hard-BIG slap in the face when Syaykh Abdurrahman Green told us how we youth today had been wasting our time on facebook, tweets and other social networking- how we are not using our time to maximum to benefit our dunya and akhira- not reaching our FULL potential. And he addressed our attitudes- taking our youth, all the blessings for granted. (Shame on you, ya ukhty) He continued saying, for certainty, we will regret in our older age for wasting our time and not spending equal(or more) time striving to learn Islamic knowledge as much as we are eager to learn secular knowledge..

Yes, FB and tweets are fun but don't waste our time there when we can actually spend our time for something beettteeeer which promises us GREATER rewards! Use them wisely, as ONLY a tool to achieve our LONG-TERM goals..

And all the engaging talks on the lives of habeebuna Muhammad (salallahu 'alayh wasalam) and his companions (radiyallahu 'anhum). We learned GREAT lessons from their lives! And you just can't have enough of them. They seemed so REAL to me, so dear.. SubhanAllah.. As if i was witnessing what they were doing...

Ya Rabb.. How much i miss them..

Hm.. Not my first time attending all these iman-boosting talks, seminars, courses and conferences tho'.. 
A good question to ask myself now, 
"How much have i implemented knowledge learned in my life?
How much have i benefited myself, my family and people around me with the knowledge i have?"

Ya Rabb, make us all among people of action like Prophet Muhammad (salallahu 'alayh wasalam), his companions, wives and all the people of the first generation of Al-Quran..
May Allah grant us eagerness to learn and live by the teachings of Al-Quran and As-Sunnah solely for HIS sake, to search for HIS countenance (face) in the day of judgement..

Amin..
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Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Ya Rabb.. I learn my lesson..


Bismillah.. 


Assalamu'alaykum..


Hope all of us are in the best state of iman and health.

May Allah guide us and keep assisting us in HIS guidance.
May Allah help us to keep our intention right, pure, sincere for HIS sake
and that our action is in accordance to the teachings of Prophet Muhammad salallahu 'alayh wasalam..

Aaaaamin. :)


I had a thought shared via fb today. So i was thinking of sharing it here, too.

Here it goes:

I realize such a not-so-cute (trying to avoid using 'stupid' here LOL) mistake i made for not clarifying things before making a decision. Btw, on what basis did i make the decision upon- on assumptions?


Astaghfirullah.. Fear Allah ukhty.. :( 


We might think event x happens there, when event y is actually taking place. The problem comes when we don't clarify on what's really going on there.. And the danger comes when we start to believe on the should-be-justified-and-clarified assumption we made..

Trust me, things are usually A LOT different than what we assume or think.


Be truthful to yourself by asking and clarifying.

Don't make a judgement and assumption beforehand..

Avoid suspicion now, as we might fall into backbiting later..

Wa na'uzhubillah..

يأَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ اجْتَنِبُواْ كَثِيراً مِّنَ الظَّنِّ إِنَّ بَعْضَ الظَّنِّ إِثْمٌ وَلاَ تَجَسَّسُواْ وَلاَ يَغْتَب بَّعْضُكُم بَعْضاً أَيُحِبُّ أَحَدُكُمْ أَن يَأْكُلَ لَحْمَ أَخِيهِ مَيْتاً فَكَرِهْتُمُوهُ وَاتَّقُواْ اللَّهَ إِنَّ اللَّهَ تَوَّابٌ رَّحِيمٌ


O you who believe! Avoid much suspicion; indeed some suspicion is sin. And spy not, neither backbite one another. Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother You would hate it. And have Taqwa of Allah. Verily, Allah is the One Who forgives and accepts repentance, Most Merciful..


(Al-hujurat:12)
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Monday, December 24, 2012

HE breaks to make

Bismillah..

Assalamu'alaykum...

I'm writing this with a crying heart..
But, i'm very proud to say that;
At least,
i'm writing this with a heart of full tawakkul on HIM..

Yes. Full tawakkul on Allah.
InshaAllah

Letting go a thing that is very dear to you..
Which you once thought you possessed it.
Which you thought it was ALL yours..

That's the mistake i made.
To think it was ALL mine.
Good.
Now HE takes it back.
HE breaks it.
To make you realize you own NOTHING.
It was ALL HIS.

Ya Rabb, why didn't i see this?

Waiting for HIM to break
to come to realize this?
How frustrating is that?
Needing Allah to 'knock' your head out
to come to realize this?
Uhuh, how shameful is that?

Ya Rabb, i must have been so heedless,
for not paying attention to this;
that i let a person to take place in this sick heart.
SICK heart, which in need of ALLAH even more.

Ya Allah, pls forgive me.
I'm letting this go for Your sake.
Pls don't forsaken me.

Guide our way.
Mend our heart.
Place mercy.
Increase blessings.

*You will never realize how much a blessing means until you lose it*

I can understand now how Muaz (radiyallahu 'anh) felt when he had to depart from most beloved person to his heart (and ours inshaAllah), Prophet Muhammad salallahu 'alayh wasalam.. To go to Yemen. He was crying all his way to Yemen.. He was a man in hurt- pain to leave..


Pls remember me in your du'a,
Pls make dua that Allah will gather us all in Jannah, close to these beloved people, the first geberation of Al-Quran..
And that Allah will save us from the fitan of the grave and hereafter, away from hellfire..

Aamin.

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Friday, December 14, 2012

Marriage In The Shade of Al Quran

Bismillah..

Assalamu'alaykum 'O beoble (people) :)

Here interesting notes, interesting enough to be shared, inshaAllah :

[Marriage]

"This ummah will never get straight if the marriages don't start right" -Da'ee Ahmed Moait

Human beings by nature love who benefits them. 
If the hearts are full of the love of this dunya, the aim for marriage will be solely for dunya.
If the hearts are full of the love of Allah and Rasulullah (salallahu 'alayh wasalam), the choice will be easier- no distraction)

You choose: Do you 
want to get married to be CURSED by Allah?
Or to be BLESSED by Allah?

Marry a person who can bring you closer to Allah.

Marry for the sake of Allah.
Share the love of Allah.





Don't tailor-make your destiny.

Ask Allah, have iman.
Believe in HIS choice.

Be a believer, Allah will give you someone HE loves





"Get married, to support, not to burden each other"





"Your husband (or wife), is your JANNAH or JAHANNAM"

'Marriage in The Shade of Al Quran' by Daiee Ahmed Moait
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Wednesday, October 31, 2012

RM5? Wallahi it was nothing !

I had an intention this morning to do sadaqah.

But..
"Where can i ever find a miskin or a faqir here in my university?.."

Recalling on a tafseer i had on Juz 'Amma, Allah encourages us to give to the poor, needy, not just anyone around us- our friends or family members who are well fed and sustained..

I stepped out of my room, made the dua and still having the lecture on stories of ahadeeth fresh in mind (yet to be digested by the level of the understanding of the heart). I was listening to it while getting ready to class. It was talking about sadaqah and death..

Ever wondered, why people hate death so much? In fact, many try to avoid the fact that everyone shall one day die..

A muslim scholar during the time of Umayyah once explained how can a person think of or love death when their pursue in their whole life is building their dunya forgetting akhira. And how can they ever love death , return to akhira and meet Allah when all these will just destroy what they are accumulating and building in dunya?

Let me put it this way:
'We work soooooo hard to build this dunya, destroy the akhira.
Now, how can we possibly leave what is built to what is destroyed?' (Re-quoting the speaker)

:/

Wallahi, we haven't worked hard enough to build a castle in Jannah.
Not hard enough to compare to our strive, our effort in building a castle in this dunya !

Ok. Make sure i strive harder for the akhira more than what i'm working on for the dunya. So that i feel nothing to leave what i have in this dunya while feeling so excited to get what's there in the hereafter ! InshaAllah will work on this, harder.

.... Then i realized i gotta walk faster, couldn't afford to lose the bus as i couldn't walk to the kuliyyah, it's too far. I couldn't walk much- a ni'mah that Allah took away from me recently, good health. SubhanAllah..

As i was trying to cross the road, i saw the bus, it was about to leave soon!

And yea, it did, right after i crossed the road........!

Aaaaa........ (T_T)
Ok. Stop complaining. Be EARLIER next time. InshaAllah..

Saw a taxi passed by right in front of me.
I wasn't late tho but i dun want to b waiting for uncertainty- when will the next bus arrive? Allahua'alam.

I stopped the taxi.
He asked me where to go.
The uncle (driver) looked a bit reluctant when i said to my kuliyyah.
But he somehow let me in.
It was then i discovered that he was in rush too !
And he reminded me to make sure i have small change..
I opened my purse and as i'd expected, i didn't have any :(

The uncle was very kind, he said that i don't have to pay anythg then, he'll just send me.
Wallahi, that was't helping, i felt HORRIBLE.
Taking his time for free?
Oh no.
No no no..

We reached the place and i told him to wait for just a moment and rushed to nearest shop to get a smaller change.

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I knocked the window, he opened it and i handed RM5 note to him.

"Uncle, just take this, i don't have any smaller money. Pls. Gotta rush to class"

He happily, excitedly shouted "This is a lot ! Oh thank you !"

(Our conversations were in Malay- here translated)

A lot?
I was so shock to his response.
Wallahi, RM5 is a lot?
I needed to pay him only RM3.10 actually, but really, i had only few RM50 notes with me.

While walking to my class, i was crying, thinking how insignificant RM5 is to compare to what Allah had prepared in the hereafter to HIS faithful and obedient servants..

RM5

Ya Allah, i regret. 
Next time i should just give the RM50. What's there to be afraid of to lose? :(
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Friday, October 19, 2012

Stay away !

I was so amazed with the hadeeth shared by ustaz in our halaqah tonight, when he mentioned hudzhaifah once explained to Umar the great fitan which will be faced by the muslims one day (Read: muslims here is referrring to us) involving wealth, family, children and more..

Then i started to realize how much have i been distracted with so many things in life.
So distracting that i realized some of them bring me away from Allah.

None contributing to my knowledge.
None strengthening my iman.
Nor increasing my taqwa..

Most severe, none of these 'few' draw me closer to Allah and the teachings of my beloved Prophet Muhammad (saw/pbuh)..

I admit, i myself being tested with one (or more- yet for me to realize/ discover) of these great fitan.

Advice to myself: cut all the ropes to all these useless 'rubbish' in life. :(

Allahul musta'an.

May Allah protect me from things that displease HIM.
May Allah give us strength to act upon what HE is pleased with, the most.
May Allah forgive all of our sins.
Amin.

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Khalas, No more.
I want things to be pleasing to Allah, even if they appeared desirable.
Allah's and HIS messenger's pleasure is my PRIORITY. 
InshaAllah..
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