Twins of Faith 2012

Assalamu'alaykum..

Hmm.. I really don't know how to begin...

But, SUBHANALLAH..

The talks yesterday were AMAZING.

MashaAllah. Tabarakallah..

We learned many new things, as well as 'reminded' of learnED lessons.. 

SubhanAllah.. To compare to HIS VASTNESS of knowledge, of course, the knowledge we learned was INsignificant-nothing to the eyes of Allah, The One whose knowledge occupies more than 7 seas.. But to us human beings with limited knowledge and capacity, it was A LOT to digest and implement. A LOT enough to hold us accountable in the day of judgement, in front of Allah.. (Scary~)

Seriously,

What's better than talking, learning about Allah?

HIS attributes: MERCY, love, forgiveness.. 

HIS promises: Rewards in Jannah, severe punishments in hellfire, the day of judgement, life in dunya and grave..

Allahuakbar..

Amazing how HE is being PATIENT with us even though we forget HIM sometimes, even sinning, disobeying HIM (YA Rabb, i'm ashamed of myself thinking of this. Pls conceal them in this dunya and herafter).. A man could get tired of us when we keep doing something he dislikes. Yes, understood. I mean, who would want to be there when we terribly frustrate and disappoint others? Even if it was by accident, who would be patient enough for the second-third-fourth-infinity-times? (Wa 'iyadzhubillah, may Allah beautify our akhlaq and make us patient and reward us). I can understand that. And we-ourselves get devastated too when we keep falling into committing the same mistakes, the same sins tho' we've tried so hard.. Then we get tired sometimes to keep moving, going. And there were times, we quit, gave up, as we see people around us had also given up on us.. Yes, it's painful. No one's around to hold you, nor to help you to put the broken parts and pieces of you all together-again.

But guess what? Allah, al Ghafuur and ar Rahim never gets tired of us. Nor does HE abandones us. HE  will never leave us as long as we keep trying, no matter how hard it is to keep going. HE forgives and forgets.. 

Parable:

It puts me to tears to see a mother, with a smile, encouraging her small child to keep standing on her feet to learn to walk. And every time this child fell, she held her hands to stand again, and let her go-NOT TO abandon her, but to let her learns on her own while she assists and waits patiently.. The small child must have given up few times, but because this small innocent child knows her mother is THERE for her to support and help, she pushes herself further to keep trying ! 

Now, how about Allah? The One who spreads only 1% of HIS mercy on this earth, the same kind of mercy that HE showed through this mother, is now keeping with HIM another 99% ?!

Ya Rabb.. Let us not fall into despair.. Pls have mercy upon us all...

Allah will be with you.. He keeps forgiving our sins- HE WAITS US at the door of taubah 24/7.

As long as you don't give up upon yourself and keep having faith (iman)..

All this clears your mind, your thoughts..

Which we hope to lead us to act righteously..

Aiming for HIS mercy and to be able to meet, talk, see HIM..

Face the brutal facts

Talking about who Allah IS.. SubhanAllah.. It breaks me!

Ya Allah, i feel so dumb. Astaghfirullah..

Why do we keep forgetting You?

What puts us away from Your remembrance?

What hinders us from worshiping you well?

What stops us from getting up in the middle of the night and cries to you, begs you for Jannatul firdausil A'la?

Why are we soooo distracted?

*Boy oh boy. Am angry with myself*

WAKE UP.. Face the brutal facts.
YOU ARE SLEEPING.

Look at yourself.

Look at your progression in terms of your deen.

Look at how you live your life.

Look at how you spend the blessings Allah gives you.

What are you doing??

(Yes you! Who writes this!)

I had a hard-BIG slap in the face when Syaykh Abdurrahman Green told us how we youth today had been wasting our time on facebook, tweets and other social networking- how we are not using our time to maximum to benefit our dunya and akhira- not reaching our FULL potential. And he addressed our attitudes- taking our youth, all the blessings for granted. (Shame on you, ya ukhty) He continued saying, for certainty, we will regret in our older age for wasting our time and not spending equal(or more) time striving to learn Islamic knowledge as much as we are eager to learn secular knowledge..

Yes, FB and tweets are fun but don't waste our time there when we can actually spend our time for something beettteeeer which promises us GREATER rewards! Use them wisely, as ONLY a tool to achieve our LONG-TERM goals..

And all the engaging talks on the lives of habeebuna Muhammad (salallahu 'alayh wasalam) and his companions (radiyallahu 'anhum). We learned GREAT lessons from their lives! And you just can't have enough of them. They seemed so REAL to me, so dear.. SubhanAllah.. As if i was witnessing what they were doing...

Ya Rabb.. How much i miss them..

Hm.. Not my first time attending all these iman-boosting talks, seminars, courses and conferences tho'.. 

A good question to ask myself now, 

"How much have i implemented knowledge learned in my life?
How much have i benefited myself, my family and people around me with the knowledge i have?"

Ya Rabb, make us all among people of action like Prophet Muhammad (salallahu 'alayh wasalam), his companions, wives and all the people of the first generation of Al-Quran..
May Allah grant us eagerness to learn and live by the teachings of Al-Quran and As-Sunnah solely for HIS sake, to search for HIS countenance (face) in the day of judgement..

Amin..

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HE breaks to make

Bismillah..

Assalamu'alaykum...

I'm writing this with a crying heart..
But, i'm very proud to say that;
At least,
i'm writing this with a heart of full tawakkul on HIM..

Yes. Full tawakkul on Allah.
InshaAllah

Letting go a thing that is very dear to you..
Which you once thought you possessed it.
Which you thought it was ALL yours..

That's the mistake i made.
To think it was ALL mine.
Good.
Now HE takes it back.
HE breaks it.
To make you realize you own NOTHING.
It was ALL HIS.

Ya Rabb, why didn't i see this?

Waiting for HIM to break
to come to realize this?
How frustrating is that?
Needing Allah to 'knock' your head out
to come to realize this?
Uhuh, how shameful is that?

Ya Rabb, i must have been so heedless,
for not paying attention to this;
that i let a person to take place in this sick heart.
SICK heart, which in need of ALLAH even more.

Ya Allah, pls forgive me.
I'm letting this go for Your sake.
Pls don't forsaken me.

Guide our way.
Mend our heart.
Place mercy.
Increase blessings.

*You will never realize how much a blessing means until you lose it*

I can understand now how Muaz (radiyallahu 'anh) felt when he had to depart from most beloved person to his heart (and ours inshaAllah), Prophet Muhammad salallahu 'alayh wasalam.. To go to Yemen. He was crying all his way to Yemen.. He was a man in hurt- pain to leave..

Pls remember me in your du'a,
Pls make dua that Allah will gather us all in Jannah, close to these beloved people, the first geberation of Al-Quran..
And that Allah will save us from the fitan of the grave and hereafter, away from hellfire..

Aamin.

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'ROJAK' post to remind the heedless-me

Bismillah!
(Konon semangat)

Assalamu'alaykum.. (Jawab penuh: Wa'alaikumussalam wrm wbt= more rewards)

Emo sekarang: Rasa KOSONG. Teruknya!!

Time2 ni la iman nak jatuh menjunam..... Mcm xda tanda nak naik. Hish. Dah bape hari dah ni.
EMPTY!

"Assalamu'alaykum fai.. Kaif haluk? Nak mtak nasihat dr sahabat lama kalau x keberatan.. :)"

Tit tit. (mesej masuk. Uhuk. HP 'comel'. Bunyi pun comel la. Ayah x kasi beli HP mahal+canggih. My uncle called me 'Gadget Destroyer'. Huhu)

Alih perhatian dari novel di tgn-'Versus' by hlovate ke HP comel. (Erk.Ape la demam tetiba bc novel. X lyn sgt tp novel ni bgus gak. Mcm bule relate byk dgn watak2 dlm novel ni.. MACAM bule relate.. Ni yg rasa mcm nak salahkan sorang rommate ni, baik betul dia kenalkan novel ni! Dah tu diri sendiri tanya, konon nak survey novel best utk kakak. Alih2 diri sendiri melekat)

Sahabat lama: ,"Wa'alaikumussalam. Alhamdulillah (Di dlm hadis Qudsi, riwayat Ahmad, Allah berfirman. Allah berfirman "Wahai anak Aadam, jika engkau mengingat Aku dlm dirimu maka Aku akn mengingatimu dlm Diriku..")

Tit tit. (Lagi mesej masuk)
"Rasulullah (saw) membezakan manusia di dalam hadisnya yg berbunyi org yg berzikir dgn org x berzikir ibarat org hidup dan org mati..' Ibn Taymiyah r.a. berkata "zikir bg seorg mukmin, bgaikan ikan dan air. Bgmanakah keadaan ikan bila ia dipisahkan dgn air?"

Fuh. Pedih. Direct masuk hati.

Tit tit. (More messages coming in-inbox penuh.Uhuk)

"Rujuklah kembali pd al-quran..surah ali imran yg bermula dri ayat 133 & seterusnya"

Apa lagi. Mana translation Quran!!

"Dan bersegeralah kamu mencari ampunan dari Tuhanmu dan mendapatkan surga yang luasnya seluas langit dan bumi yang disediakn bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa (ayat 133)
...........dan (juga) orang-orang yang apabila mengerjakan perbuatan keji atau menzalimi diri sendiri. (segera) mengingati Allah, lalu memohon ampunan atas dosa-dosanya, dan siapa (lagi) yang dapat mengampuni dosa-dosa-dosa selain Allah? Dan mereka tidak meneruskan perbuatan dosa itu sedang mereka mengetahui..(ayat 135)"

Tetiba teringat kat Syaykh Reda Bedeir last time dtg Malaysia bagi talk: "Rush to The Forgiveness of Allah"
Haaaa... Macam tahu je apa masalah hati ini sekarang. Macam dah terjawab. (O Allah, sorry!)

Tit tit. (Ada lagi)

"Hati yg resah & gelisah, boleh jadi kerana ia merindukan pda Allah namun dihalangi dgn perbuatan maksiat yg dilakukan xpa disedari.."

"Jagalah matamu krna itulh pintu yg paling luas & paling mudah utk dimasuki anasir maksiat..kesannya akn memberi tempias pd hati..sentiasa menjga hati dgn perbykkan istighfar yg benar.. halusi mknanya.. yakini dgn hati yg tawadu' memohon pd Allah.."

Hmm.. Tawadu... Ya Allah! Adab dgn Allah pun x settle lagi. Ibadah hati..

Balas: "SubhanAllah.. Xtaw nak ckp pe. *hati tesentuh. Rindukan peringatan*"

Ye. Sebak sgt. Rindukan hati yg dulunya sentiasa 'basah' , hidup mengingati Allah.
Sekarang? Lain. Mungkin terlalu sibuk dgn hal duniawi yg melalaikan..

"Org yg beriman itu sunatullahnya akn terus menerus diuji Allah. bgmana mungkin kamu dikatakan beriman jika tidak diuji.. (29:2-3)

Sebak. Sahabat bilik sorang ni pulak baca Al-Quran gaya ala2 Ziyad Patel. Dah macam 'background music', cuma bukan music, skali Quranic Recitation da.. Haru.....

Tit tit. (Mesej masuk lagi)

"InsyaAllah, setiap mukmin itu memerlukan peringatan..dan Allah itu Maha Pengampun & Maha Penyayang pada hamba2Nya.. (39:53 & seterusnya) Sama2lah kita saling memperingati.."

InshaAllah..
InshaAllah..

My mood now: Malu. Malu dengan Allah..
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Pikir.. Pikir..

"We are yet to make Allah happy with us"
-Syaykh Tawfique Chowdury (TOF Conference, Malaysia. Dec 2011)

Ya Allah, pelihara hati ini.
Ya Mu'min, I wana have sound and and healthy heart. Amin.

A post for the now-heedless me.
Allahu yahdina.

With so much love and peace,
Umm Teem.

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It's My Past. No More Please

Bismillah..
ASsalamu'alaykum..

SubhanAllah.. One evening a dear friend of mine asked, with enough confusion on her face (obviously), "Why would you feel so much disturb whenever there's music playing on?"

I couldn't think of any better answer, "Because i used to love it so much"

I understand why couldn't she comprehend this 'weird' thing she found in me. Why wouldn't she feel that way anyway. In the middle of nowhere, 'those' songs were sometimes played n i couldn't sit peacefully, restless and worse i just got up and excused myself. I WALKED AWAY.

Yea.. I used to love these songs. But not anymore. Now, i HATE them.
I really hate thinking of how much had all these songs taken my time in past.
Hate thinking how much had i wasted my life
Hate thinking how much had them bring me away from spending more time seeking knowledge
Hate most thinking how much had this life of delusion taken me away from Allah- from HIS remembrance.

Life of delusion? Uhuh. Over-preoccupying my life with MUSIC. As if life is empty, null, boring without music. Sounds familiar?

*Early notification*
I'm not gonna tell you the rulings on music- prohibited or not? In what sense? Prohibited instruments, etc this time. Just clarifying my preference of Al-Quran over music. I listen to nasheed songs sometimes too, but without instruments and VERY rarely (I don't find contentment in nasheed songs though).

You see, i was raised up with music. It was was my passion, REALLY was.

My schoolmates know this well.

Wallahi i wish you girls read this post of mine. WAllahi i miss you girls.
I miss how we used to rehearse our parts (choir, singing contest) and how i used to watch you girls dancing  while waiting for my turn to practise my songs. And wanting to learn how to play piano after done practising our parts (choir) in our school mainhall.

But now, i've changed. You girls can obviously see this from me.  Wondering what happened to me, disappearing for almost 2 years then wala! Me with her big hijab after those years n now NIQAB. And guess you were shocked to discover me last time with this 'shield' on my face.

*ninja* Hoho

When Amir Muhaddith (if i spelled his name right. Known as 'Loon' before reverting to Islam, a former rapper with Bad Boys recording, used to be famous in one of his songs feat with Usher: 'I need a Girl'- again, if i spelled it right) was asked during his talk in my university to perform an 'Islamic Rap' or music or SOMETHING, he refused. He was trying to tell them not to 'bring' him back to his past life and that if possible, he would never wana go BACK to his past life- MUSIC. Wallahi i felt like he had my words! The exact spirit, 'dilemma' (perhaps. of choosing music over the beautiful words of Allah), determination (to leave music!). Imagine, it's part of your past-jahiliiyah life that you wanted so BADLY to leave for the sake of Allah and now turning your WHOLE new life to something better that is THE QURAN, beautiful words of Allah but out of a sudden, a person comes to you and telling you to 'go' back to that which you don't even want to come near to-music? And to some people, sometimes, when you tried your best to politely refuse and still they insist, that's the moment they will be shocked to see the 'weird' part of you: angry, unexplainable disturbed+mixed emotions seen obviously on your face and worst to be labelled as being extreme when you walk away. SubhanAllah..

Allah knows best that you were not trying to be rude.
Allahu yahdina.

And it was just a moment ago, i told to myself, "Oo my god, i miss to sing again".
Then i asked, "Then why are you here?"

Purpose of life?
Worship Allah. Please Allah.

How?
Pleasing HIM. Gain knowledge to know what are the things taught in this perfect, complete and beautiful deen, understand, practice, teach and share! Keep purifying intention, actions, nafs- for HIS sake alone. InshaAllah.

What if you forget and become heedless and ignorant again? (Just in case if i do- wa'iyadzhubillah!)
Turn to HIM, seek HIS forgiveness. Ask HIM to guide you. Then leave sins. Istiqamah.
*And tell your close companions to keep reminding you*

InshaAllah.. InshaAllah..

OK. No more of those ol' days.
I found something better. And i much appreciating it n i wouldn't wana lose it- ever!
*Sweetness of Faith. Halawatul eman*

InshaAllah..

Thank you Allah :)

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Why i wrote this out of a sudden? Hehe. Had Twins of Faith (TOF) conference before. Were listening to its theme song. The non-instrumental song reminded me A LOT of my prev life. Guess my iman was so low that i started to miss all those seemingly 'great' times i had with my ol' friends on the stage, rehearsing with those so called cool songs sang by 'cool' rappers n singers yet adding more misery and emptiness to the heart. Hip hop. R&B pop. And those curses in raps?  They were not cool after all..

Astaghfirullah.

REAL PEACE is in the remembrance of Allah.

A post to remind the-sometimes-heedless me.

With so much love and peace,
Umm Teem.

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Never will HE be injustice

Bismillah. Assalamu'alaykum..

"I hate it when my love towards HIS creation is in conflict with my love towards THE CREATOR (Allah).."

Recalling on what a very dear friend of mine once said to me.. True indeed. It leaves you a DEEP CUT to the heart when you are battling with your evil nafs which tries its best to get its place in your heart instead of leaving your heart in peace in HIS remembrance- NO conflicts. NO restlestness. NO worries. Only tranquility. Happiness. Peacefulness. Conviction. Strong faith and love to Allah.

*How easy is life if you could just be like all those superheroes shown in the scenes, where you could just fight and defeat those wicked-ugly-evil monsters and the battles just end there!*

CUT.

Be real ukhty.

Well, that's how you used to see life as when you were kids. How innocent!

Allahu musta'an..

Your love towards your mom, dad, friends or anything that pleases you in this beautiful world can either be one of your best means to come closer to The Ever-Forgiving Rabb or a barrier between you and HIM. Wa'iyadzhubillah. What pain can be worse than being allieniated, away from The Forever-Needing Rabb, Allah? When HE said in HIS love letter many times to those who choose to believe, never will we be able to find other Protector, Guardian or Best Friend other than HIM. How can we still look after one other than HIM after knowing this?

Again, everything in this world, which has helped you to live your day, comes from HIM alone, The All-Sustainer and The All-Provider, Allah. They are all MEANS. Up to you now on how you 'use' them. Thanks Allah before them. All praises due to HIM. Alhamdulillah.

When things get tougher in life, know that HE who knows everything hidden and shown, small or big, is teaching you something. Because that's human, we learn best from experience. It's time to get theories into practices eyh? Sabr, syukur, redha, tawakkul, love, fear, hope. InshaAllah. Allah alone our source of guidance, strength and support. :)

People..

They might question you lots of things. Expressing to you their concern and worries. Yes. They love and care about you. True. You are listening to them too. But not all things you can obey or follow. What's left there to obey if it contradicts to HIS obedience. Verily there's no obedience to the creations over The Creator. Yes. Thank them for their concern. Explain to them why you couldn't agree with them this time. If they resist, be patient. Hold firm to HIS rope. Innallaha ma'assobirin..

I know you love them, but i know you love Allah more. So it's your duty to please Allah while being as hikmah as possible to be nice to them.

When everyone seems not understanding you, what you are going through, nor they believe you, no worries, don't be sad, turn to Allah. He's there and will always be. InshaAllah :)

"Allah alone can mend the broken heart, He alone can bring all the broken pieces back together. That's how HE does to your broken heart. It's easy for HIM. You just need to turn back to HIM.."

Maybe i've been too far from HIM all this while. Khayr. O Allah, I'm back. (Please don't leave me!!) *emo*

Hey, Allah is testing you, grab the chance to gain more reward eyh?

All in all, never will Allah be injustice to you- Did HE ever? Nope Alhamdulillah. :)

ps: Can't help myself from being sad.. Well, i'm being human. Give yourself a break. Forgive. Leave to Allah. Just do your part. He'll take good care of you. Just as HE always do. InshaAllah..

﴿قَالَ إِنَّمَا أَشْكُو بَثِّي وَحُزْنِي إِلَى اللّهِ ..

 He said, "I only complain of my suffering and my grief to Allah , .

[Yusuf: 86]

.. فَاللَّهُ خَيْرٌ حَـفِظًا وَهُوَ أَرْحَمُ الرَحِمِينَ ﴾

.. But Allah is the Best to guard, and He is the Most Merciful of those who show mercy.''

[Yusuf: 64]

 فَاصْبِرْ إِنَّ الْعَـقِبَةَ لِلْمُتَّقِينَ ﴾

. So be patient. Surely, the (good) end is for those who have Taqwa.

[Hud: 49]

A post to heal.

With so much love and peace,
Umm Teem

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Finding Your Way: Stop Living a Dream

Bismillah..

Assalamu'alaykum..

Just finished watching a GOOOOOD video. MashaAllah. You've gotta watch this too!

Specially for those who are still in search of the truth- not knowing which path to take, how to trace and how to stay on that path you are convinced to be- TRUE. :)

FINDING YOUR WAY by Bro Nouman Ali Khan (NAK) with Bro Eddie in The Deen Show

"I  used to go to pub, disco, have girlfriends, doing this  haram thing and doing that... etc..."

Now you want to change. Or you are changing and improving (alhmdulillah!)

But one thing bothers you a great deal:

"Which path should i take? How to start? How to remain on this path i'm taking?"

You see, when we ask for direction, it means we are asking for guidance, agreed? And..... there must be people before who sincerely asked this same direction (that you are now asking for too). And...... there must be other people who led these to this direction/path. Uhuh. THERE MUST BE.

But the issues here:

• Some don't follow that direction given to them (but they asked for it before) tho' they are SHOWN the direction clearly. They see the truth but DISREGARD it, they IGNORE it.
• Some accept the guidance, wanting to follow the direction but they add 'FLAVOUR' to the guidance according to their own wimps, lusts, desires. Thus get confused and deviated (!)
• Some accept the guidance as the way it is, trace the path as directed and walk upon the same path of those sincere people who looked for same path.

May Allah protect and save from becoming those who deviate and increase in guidance. Amin!

Bro NAK's advice to finding your way to the truth:

• Be sincere to your Creator.
• Accept HIM as your Lord.
• Ask HIM (sincerely!) to show you the path; and
• Ask HIM to show you those who walked down the same path and succeeded.
• Ask HIM to keep you away from those who walked down the path but then get LOST-went astray or earned God's wrath.

What are our 'measuring stick' to know, maintain our search in truth?

Well.. you have to watch to know more!

SIMPLE FORMULA (yet dofficult for some people to do) to find and stay firm on the path of truth:

• Sincerely put time (and effort!) into doing this.
• Take yourself AWAY from distractions and delusions that take you away from this quest of truth.
• Since you have asked sincerely to your Lord to show you the way, BE READY to whatever you will get (be submissive), put your ego on the ground-as you might find the truth opposed to your desires and wimps.. (i believe this is the toughest part. May Allah give strength! amin)

Great analogies, stories and explanation he gave especially the one regarding our best asset in life: TIME.

It's scary to discover the real fact about time. SubhanAllah!

Brothers and sisters- WAKE UP.

"Once you have OPENED your eyes, don't let them SHUT again.."

A reminder specially made for me, before others...

Wassalam.

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The Results Reflect YOU

"YOU. BAD MUSLIMS!"

His famous quote in class. Now they stuck in my head.

Good. At least i'm aware now. "You. Bad Muslims!"

Will always remember that.

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Everything we did in class-for all the mistakes, it was us to be blamed, and we should be.

"Your group project's grade reflects you and your group members! Your attitude! NO unity and cooperation among you! How can you call yourself 'MUSLIM'?!"

"This building will collapse if anyone of you got 'A' in your group assignment. I challenge you. Muslims usually don't perform well. Why? Because they are lazy!"

"How many could get 100% out of 100% or 40% out of 40% for your final exam? Very rare-impossible!"

"You should have been scoring! But you don't! Why? Because you don't read! And because you-MUSLIMS"

Or he said something similar. We were scolded in class. SubhanAllah.

He even told us why he was emphasizing sooooo much on grammar (in writing our articles, answering exam questions).

“Do you think Allah will be pleased with you if you read Al-Quran simply as how you wanted to(without tajweed)? Do you think your friends will like it when you speak to them your own style/language simply the way you like eventhough they don’t?”

True indeed. L

“You think you can answer your exam if you don’t read your textbook? If you don’t study? How can you stand for Islam when people talk bad about Islam when you don’t have knowledge (0%!) about your religion!”

He was explaining to us how can our attitude and habits affect our attitude towards Islamic practices as well. Astaghfirullah.. So many things to improve on! Allah musta’an..

I could see he was quite upset with us all.

But all in all, it was such an eye-opener!

You know in what class were we?
HRM.

Uhuh. You read me.

HUMAN RESOURCE MANAGEMENT.

Not in any Islamic-core subject class in my university as u might think.

At first, you might think this lecturer of mine is just being sceptical towards muslims (as a whole), or you might say, waaaaaay sceptical. But no he's not. Infact, he was right! He was pin-pointing our mistakes-as MUSLIMS.

So improve! Get moving now oo you muslims.

Wallahi i like his class! The best ‘eman-rejuvenator’ and 'head-knocker' ever! In his own style, of course. MashaAllah! Thanks dear lecturer. We learned a lot from you. Alhamdulillah :)

LESSONS LEARNT:

1. Portray good attitude, behave REALLY well wherever you are. Be a likeable-muslim since all muslims should aware their "I'M A MUSLIM" name tag brings with them their religion name, which is obviously ISLAM. You wouldn't want to tarnish your religion's beautiful image with your nasty behaviour, would you? Please please please.........DON'T.

2. If you are a student of knowledge, ACT LIKE ONE. Have adab in seeking knowledge. Respect your lecturer. Take your studies seriously. As a student, it's your duty to learn by heart and hard, perform REALLY well in your projects, assignments, exams, just everything that's assigned to you that need to be accomplished! Why? Because your duty=your amanah. At MOST, aren't you afraid being questioned by Allah for not (at least TRYING) fulfilling your amanah in best manner? Allahu yahdina..

3. Don't give chance to others to pin-point your weaknesses! One common mistake:LAZINESS. Would you want Islam to be associated with this nasty attitude of yours?

4. Proof of Concept. You have been propagating how cool Islam is.. How awesome is its teaching.. How 'pure' and humanly muslims should be.. Etc.. But i wonder, why aren't all these 'cool-awesome-pure' islamic image reflected from you, so called 'MUSLIMS'? So get yourself 'islamized' first before you're to islamize others. Proof the islamic concepts to be true.
"Hey, u said Islam is *this* and *that*. But you got the lowest mark in class. You got the lowest grade in your projects and assignments. What's so great on becoming a muslim? So Islam isn't great after all."

ABOVE: Please don't let this happen-ever! That people wouldn't want to become Muslim or not to even come NEAR to Islam, to learn it because of you! Na'udzhubillahi min dzalik! :(

5. Be open up to criticism. If the critics are constructive eventhough they appear to be negative to you, say 'Alhamdulillah. Thanks to the critics, i'm able to know what are my mistakes and i'm going to IMPROVE on them'. Not to complain. Accept it with a sincere heart to make a change..

@But if the critics are the DESTRUCTIVE ones-which are of NO HELP to increase your eeman or your knowledge, then ignore and walk away. These kind of critics will only retard your motivation or self-esteem :(

6. Intend-Visualize. Everything you do, start with the right INTENTION-to fulfill your amanah for the sake of pleasing your LORD (Allah swt) alone, in best manner full of excellence (ihsan) while VISUALIZING:

• the MOST : the end reward from Allah (ya'ni Jannatul a'la with everything you were promised to have in there-lots of food and fruits, peaceful greetings and no vain/insulting talks, pleasing companions and neighbors, ect.. It's the ULTIMATE success inshaAllah! ; or

• the LEAST: your high achievements and success in dunya~ :)

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'MUSLIM' is a term used to define every individual that practices a beautiful, comprehensive and excellent religion called ISLAM. Unfortunately, not all today's muslims are TRULY trying to become a REAL muslim. They are just a 'MUSLIM' by name, not a FULL-TIME muslim. (i’m not trying to generalize here-not ALL but some/many L )

Na'udzhubillahi min dzalik.

Sorry if i'd ever insulted or offended anyone, didn't mean to do so. Was just reminding myself before others in TRYING to become a REAL-practicing muslima. That's all.

May Allah be pleased. Aameen.

pss: Am comparing my muslim friends from Malaysia and from other foreign countries (in focus: non-muslim countries and west). Found that my foreign friends are more committed and diligent in practising Islam-whole-heartedly! Maybe Malaysian muslims (again, in large, not saying ALL Malaysian muslims) are taking Islam much for granted than these people who hardly having FREEDOM practising this seemingly-strange religion in non-muslim countries. SubhanAllah.

May Allah put firmness in you heart my dear sisters (and brothers out there) to practice this beautiful deen-perfect way of life. Aameen..

If you think you are a good muslim but having hard time to swallow/digest people's advice, think again

Wassalamu'alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh..

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I feel Quran is reading me...

SubhanAllah..

Isn't Al-Quran enough to prove everything?..

I still remember my first time holding it in my hands,

my first time to really read it with understanding,

my first time reading it by heart (Wallahee it was the MOST beautiful feeling!)

and felt like not wanting to let it go-NEVER!

How about you?

Still remember yours?

May Al-Quran be your best BOOK OF GUIDANCE. Aaameen :)

May your life full of contentment and tranquility=your best gift of life.

Aamen.

EnchaAllah :)

Wassalam...

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Cool 'IlmTour ~ JOIN US!

Assalamu'alaykum!

Just as excited as i always am: i'm bringing you good news!

To my dear seeker of knowledge (or shall i say knowledge lovers?), do attend these exciting talks:

I hope you could see the details clearly :)

Or if you coudn't, check the details here:

Sheikh Riad's Malaysian 'IlmTour (FB)

Here's details of our cool syeikh :)

Syeikh Riad

And i'm now waiting to attend THE BIGGEST EVENT of this 'ilmTour: THE HEART SERENE: THE PURIFICATION OF THE SOUL seminar this coming april! I just can't wait! SubhanAllah..

There's still time for you to enroll. Here's the details of the seminar:

A Heart Serene: The Purification of The Soul

(InshaAllah it will be a worth-paying seminar :)

p/s: Have had our first talk with Sh. Riad last night at Taylor's university Lakeside Campus. It was.......MASHAALLAH- Very nice! Food for thought for youth. Now i'm having 2 kinds of fever: 'Exam Fever' and the 'Seminar Fever'

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Oo Allah, i want that but why YOU give me this!

Bismillah....

Assalamu'alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh..

I make dua that what i'm going to share this time will benefit us all-especially myself-a normal human being who needs to be reminded of Allah at all times. Allah musta'an.

It has been a while that i haven't shared my 'journey to Islam' (just simply love to call it as such!) with everyone who has been reading my blogposts (If i do have any. LOL) So many things happened lately, just so many of them! I just couldn't list them down! From good to bad, pleasant to unpleasant things! And i learned great lessons from them and they made me realize one thing:

EVERYTHING THAT BEFALLS UPON YOU IS ACTUALLY GOOD FOR YOU EVEN IF IT DISPLEASES YOU-IF YOU HAVE BEEN CONSULTING AND ASKING ALLAH TO HELP AND ASSIST YOU IN ALL OF YOUR AFFAIRS

Allahuakbar.

It is so true when Allah says in HIS 'love letters' :

"..But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you, But ALLAH KNOWS, and YOU KNOW NOT.." (Al-Baqarah:216)

We might like something so much, so immensely to the extend that nothing else matters to us other than getting what we want or desire! But my dear brothers and sisters, bear in mind that nothing is to be given to us by Allah if it is NOT WRITTEN for us in Allah's qadr. It is impossible for us to get it by any means..

Some people might say, "Then that will be unfair to me if i could not get what i want! I've made du'a to Allah to give it to me so why wouldn't HE? HE supposedly is to grant any wishes.."

Or you might say, "I made du'a to Allah for this but why isn't HE giving me what i want? Infact, i got something else, not as what i expected!"

Then you'll start wondering, "Why is Allah doing this to me?.."

SubhanAllah.. Far removed is Allah from any imperfections..

If we are truly a believer, how could we think as such to Allah 'azza wa jal?

If Allah is so dear to us, infact the dearest, how could we accuse Allah being unfair to us?

My dear bothers and sisters..

Never to ask Allah what you want but ask Allah to give you what is the best for you as what you want unnecessarily the best for you..

Know this: All prayers, du'aat will be answered. Infact, may have been answered! It's just us who don't see..

It could be something you want. But don't be sad if you haven't got it. Allah wants to give it to you at the right time.

Could also be something you have never expected. Or something that you hate. So have hopes only on Allah so that you won't feel regret or disappointed for hoping something which is not for you..

Allah.. All these reminders really hit me. May Allah give us chance to improve ourselves..

"Oo Allah, I am Your slave and the son of Your male slave.

My forehead is in Your Hand (i.e. You have control over me).

Your judgement upon me is assured

and Your decree concerning me is just.

I ask You by every name that You have named yourself with,

revealed in Your Book,

taught by any one of Your creation

or kept unto Yourself in the knowledge of the unseen taht is with You,

to make the Quran the spring of my heart,

and the light in my chest,

the banisher of my sadness

and the reliever of my distress.."

(Narrated by Ahmad, Al-albani graded it authentic)

A beautiful video specially for my beloved brothers and sisters..

May Allah bless you

Wassalamu'alaykum..

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Allah LISTENS and Allah KNOWS

Assalamu'alaykum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..

SubhanAllah.. Walhamdulillah.. Wallahuakbar

It has been few days that many things happened in my life.

Truly Allah 'azza wa jal has been with us all the time..

STORY 1

A very dear friend of mine, who i love for the sake of Allah, who is in her path of knowing Islam, in her best of her efforts to love Allah wa Rasullullah (pbuh), to you my dear, may Allah bless you fiddunya wa akhira..

Last night, surprisingly, i dreamed of this deary friend of mine. In my dream, she came to me and asked me few questions which i've forgotten what they were. And she looked very upset. The only thing that i remember is that she was asking me about Allah. And i was upset too seeing her being demotivated. And i remember i called her again in the dream, trying to help and answer her questions. And i also remember how she left me then, feeling satisfied.. Alhamdulillah..

However, you might say to me that it's just a dream..

Yup. It's a dream. But a dream by which Allah, maybe, was trying to tell me something..

This morning, right after i had my fajr prayer, as i couldn't help feeling a bit worried about this beloved friend of mine, i sent her a message telling her about the dream and asking her well-being..

And subhanAllah.. She told me that she was speechless. The day before i had the dream, she told me that she was really upset, really missing all the Islamic talks that we used to have, and that she somehow really miss Allah.. She told me how much she wanted to talk to me that day, and had even prepared a LONG-MESSAGE to send to me-but she cancelled n deleted it. She changed her mind. She just complained to Allah her problem, not wanting to share with me, which i assume she didn't want to disturb or burden me with her stories and problems (but ya ukhty, you've never been so :) )..

You see, biiznillah, with Allah's will, i came to know what happened to her the day before eventhough she didn't want me to know and that she didn't even tell me so. but subhanAllah, Allah, The One who knows everything including what's hidden in our heart, knows what she intended for and there it was, i discovered it anyway, after had that dream..

But that was not all..

STORY 2

At the very same day, i had a class with Ustaz Kabuye Othman. It was a class on ethics and fiqh for everyday life. He was talking about the state of heart, the khulq of the beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW and some other things.. What touched/moved my heart the most in that class was his advice and encouragement on us to be generous. As usual , being so motivated to practice this sunnah, i asked Allah to give me chance to be one.

That evening, while waiting for maghrib prayer in IIUM Mosque, i was reading The Quran with few close friends of mine. It was almost prayer time. One of my friends, had been asking around if anyone of us had extra brooch. I didn't respond to her until she sat next to me, as i was trying to concentrate on my recitation. However, i wanted to help her so i gave her mine without thinking much about it-it's just a brooch, not a big deal, eventhough i know that i might be needing it too later :)

Right after i handed her the brooch and smiled to her, i continued reading my quran..

SubhanAllah.. the next verse said this:

"Verily your Lord does provide sustenance in abundance for whom HE pleases, and HE provides in a just measure. For HE does know and regard all HIS servants.."

Al-Isra':30

How motivating! SubhanAllah.. Allah promises that HE'll sustain the rezq of those who HE wants. Oo Allah, i wana become one. Make me one! Amin! :))

STORY 3

Another story.. I was so upset one evening and being so demotivated at the same time. I'd rather say that my emaan was in its critical state-need to be 'TOP-UP'..I couldn't help myself except heading towards the mosque, wanted to perform my 'asr prayer as i'd just finished my class. In mosque, i asked Allah to 'talk' to me. I complained to HIM everything, wanting HIM to help me to rejuvenate my eman.. Then i opened my Al-Quran with the translation.. Then i came across these verses:

"In the case of those who say, "Our Lord is Allah", and further, stand straight and steadfast, the angels descend on them (from time to time): "Fear you not! Nor grieve!" but receive the Glad Tidings of the Garden (of bliss), that which you were promised!

"We are you protectors in this life and the Hereafter: therein shall you have all that your souls shall desire; therein shall you have all that you ask for! - a hospitable gift from One Oft-Forgiving, most Merciful.."

(Fussilat:30-32)

These verses meant a lot to me, i tried to memorize them that evening and i did, alhamdulillah..

But it didn't stop there. I stayed at the mosque till maghrib and had my maghrib prayer there too, wanting to spend more time in HIS house.. Something happened during the prayer. It was during the 1st rakaah. After the imam recited al-Fatihah (as beautiful as always!), then guess what happened?..

The imam recited the same and exact verse that i memorized that evening! Awesome. Allahuakbar.

I couldn't help myself. I burst into tears.. At that moment, there's nothing dearer to me than Allah 'azza wa jal. It was despicable-the best state of emaan i'd ever had! Wallahi.. The best feeling i'd ever had-tranquility, contentment..

Allah.. Please bring us closer to you from time to time.. Aameen..

My dear brothers and sisters,

The only reason i shared with you all these stories is just to make us all think, "What are the blessings of Allah that i forgot to thank today?" I believe all of us have gone through this moment in our life time, the moment of having Allah very close and dear in our heart.. Sweet. Nice. Peaceful. Calm. Or the best way to describe it- DESPICABLE..

Therefore my beloved brothers and sisters..

Let's be grateful and thankful to Allah who has blessed us with HIS companionship and guidance. May Allah lead us to HIS straight path and help us to persevere... Aamin..

Love you all for the sake of Allah..

May we meet again in jannatul a'la..

Aameen..

Barakallahu fikum.

Wassalam..

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Oh Self..

A Talk with the Self By Kamal El mekki: Oh my self what will calm you? Can’t you remain patient for a day or two? I try to contain you but your strength overpowers But when we die life will seem like hours So can’t you be patient for part of a day? And remain steadfast upon the straight way? The direction you’re taking leads to my worst fears Of the day we stand for fifty thousand years No one will joke nor talk nor smile And the sun from our heads will be at a mile Nowhere to hide and nowhere to flee Standing for what seems an eternity Then the judgment begins and the books will land Either on your right or your left hand Oh my self … Do not become like those who left the right track And put their left hands behind their back Oh self how do you plan to cross the sirat suspended in the air? Craftier than a fox, sharper than a sword and thinner than a hair? How do you plan to cross? Or will you cross at all? The blink of an eye? Run? Or would you rather crawl? The bad deeds you command will drop you from it And only good deeds put you back upon it Oh self.. it’s a five hundred year-drop suspension Over a terrible place I’d rather not mention Oh self… Do not be fooled by this world and its illusions And keep in mind judgment, the grave and other conclusions Oh self wake up! Don’t follow your desire And ask for forgiveness to avoid the fire Oh self keep the commands and avoid prohibitions And pay close attention to these admonitions Be amongst those who were the best of planners Who prepared for the future with good deeds and good manners Oh self it simply about your control Being patient now so as to reach your goal I don’t mean to put a burden, or put much stress Just to warn of a day when the limbs confess Sins add up as you live through the years Then sadness won’t save you and nor will the tears Every time you sin the Shaytan is winning So remember the One against Whom you’re sinning Oh my self… Life is short and ends when you least expect it And then what will you say when you’re resurrected? The angel of death overlooked you and took the souls of your brothers And one day he’ll come to you and overlook others For great rewards plant the righteous seeds Oh Allah, I seek refuge from the evil of my self and from the evil of my deeds

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DA'WAH='INVITE' not a 'FIGHT'

Assalamu'alaikum..


"Excuse me, can u please take the pamphlet over here?.."

It wasn't just a pamphlet-IT'S AN ISLAMIC PAMPHLET
A paralyzed boy(he could only move his head!) spreads ISLAM through pamphlets
And guess what-MANY people there in the hospital CONVERTED to ISLAM

Hey, he could only move his head-but he seemed to have no excuses spreading ISLAM..
SubhanAllah.. What about us?

Your job is to try your best to invite-tell people about ISLAM=THE ULTIMATE TRUTH..
The rest leaves to Allah. Only Allah has the power over changing HEARTS of people you invite..

The qs here..

How much have we tried?
Have we tried enough?
Is it true we only call/invite people to righteous and forbid bad deeds only after we have ENOUGH knowledge?
Is it only then 'DAWAH' is obligated upon us?..

NO.

Beautiful message about the BEST investment for muslims
From Guest Kemal El Mekki in TheDeenShow.com

Watch to know more..
Jazakallahu khair ya akh Kemal

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DEAN's or ALLAH's lists??

Assalamu'alaikum!
Alhamdulillah.. Let's thank Allah for everythg He has given to us..

Had just came back from my visit to my old secondary school-TCS!
Alhamdulillah. Learnt lots of things there too! MashaAllah..

I realized that during my time in tcs, i wasn't a good student with all those good grades-with flying colours and everything. (Because i really love outdoor activities) i didn't have everything-indoors and outdoors-balanced up. Telling you again. i wasn't an excellent muslima student..


Until i started my 1st semester in IIUM, everything changed- i changed. The way i live my life, the way i study, the way i conduct myself with people and in all classes i attend, the way i think as well. All for the sake of Dean's list-i eversince that always wanted to become an excellent muslima student. InshaAllah!

Alhamdulillah. Thanks to Allah for everything He has given me, for all the guidance..

Then this idea popped into my head:

We are struggling hard to get our names in the dean's list, trying our best to go through all the 'tests, filtration, interviews'-all these being done just to get our names in the list! Then how about Allah's list?? How come i didn't realize that we are being filtered and interviewed?

Oo you seekers of knowledge, we are being tested here too! Study for the sake of Allah, huh? HE's filtering us too..

It's your struggle in your study (and job-if you are working) and your self-conduct in this world, the dunya. Allah azza wa jal is testing us..

1. through all the hardships, filtering us-You pass if you be patient and fail if you don't

2. the interviewing, could be in this dunya itself and in the grave!

Interview for this dunya: if you thank HIM after the ease He had given you-you pass, and fail if you don't(if you forget HIM)
For what to expect in the grave: Good life in alam barzakh means good life in the hereafter (Al Jannah inshaAllah!) but bad condition means tough times you'll face later! (naudzhubillah..)

Do you realize now that we are being tested to be listed in HIS list??..
Alhamdulillah.. hope we all do..

And do you know that the results of this struggle we are facing now in this dunya, Allah will tell you later in the hereafter? During the Day of Resurrection? Whether we are in Allah's list or we are not

Allahuakbar.

Let's work for both!
Short term: Dean's list
Long term: Allah's list..
Both at the same time..

But how?
Everything has been taught in Islam-it's our homework and research to discover it out!
InshaAllah..


Truly, we are the best of ummah-if we are being FULL-TIME muslims..
Excellent-comprehensive muslim students!
INshaAllah!

"You (true believers Islamic monotheism, and real followers of Prophet Muhammad SAW and his sunnah) are the best of peoples ever raised up for mankind; you enjoin Al-Ma'ruf (i.e. islamic monotheism and all that Islam has ordained) and forbid Al-Munkar (polytheism, disbeleief and all that Islam has forbidden), and you believe in Allah..."
-Taken from translation of the meanings of the noble Quran in English Language

Let's work hard and pray to Allah to become one of this 'best of peoples"!
InshaAllah!

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